Some good news! :)

So, I don't know where to start this post other than we have some EXCELLENT news to share!

Friday's scan went great.  We were so lucky to have an AWESOME tech who could definitely feel our anxiety and did his best to put our minds at ease.  Our last scan took an hour to complete for EVERYTHING and this one took almost an hour and half... just on her heart and tummy.  We have one wiggly little girl in there :)

We got great news that her heart looks perfect.  Her positioning last time probably wasn't that great, but her right ventricle is there, properly sized, functioning perfectly and all the veins and arteries look just as they should.  One big hurdle we crossed there!

The spot in her stomach- is still there.  After the scan, I asked the tech about her tummy and he said, "I saw it, but I'm not sure it's something that I would have even mentioned in my report if this was the first time we saw it."  He did want the radiologist to see it in real time, as opposed to the pictures he snapped.  She was available and spent time with us looking at it.  She has no idea what it is, but it's only affecting her small bowel, which is apparently a good thing.  Without any other soft markers, she has no real idea what could be causing it.  We will follow up with another ultrasound next month.  Her growth pattern is perfect- right in the 50th percentile for all major organs/systems and she weighs a whopping 1lb 9oz!

I'd love to say that I walked out of the appointment feeling overjoyed, but I just wish that we had gotten the complete all clear.  Obviously, I'd much rather her still have the tummy issues rather than the heart issues, but I just can't seem to relax.  The radiologist and the tech both told me NOT TO WORRY and to enjoy my pregnancy but I'm just not there yet.

Our weekend was a really good one- Friday night one of M's co-workers hosted a wine and appetizers party.  There must've been something in the water... out of about 50 people, I counted 7 pregnant women besides me! It was nice to get a break after the build-up to the ultrasound and M's friends are so sweet.  I didn't know what he had or hadn't mentioned to people at work and when we got there they were so excited.  (I think he forewarned them if we didn't show up, it wasn't good news!)  So lots of hugs and lots of promises of more prayers to go around.  Saturday I finally slept in for the first time in ages.  We putzed around the house and met my parents for an early dinner.  Stopped by the mall to return some things to the maternity store and then got home and stayed put- it was so cold and windy.  Yesterday, we finished our taxes (thank goodness... we are getting a nice refund!  Unfortunately, none of that money will go for anything "fun", but it couldn't have come at a better time).  Last night, M insisted that we go look at baby furniture... which was interesting.

Because of the fact that I am horribly good at denial, I haven't wanted to do anything baby related.  Other than starting a tupperware bin full of adorable pink things (to include glittery pink sneakers-love them!), I've basically done nothing to get ready for the baby.  I've read blogs of people who knew that there child didn't have a prayer and they still made nurseries.  I didn't get that.  I mean... isn't that a horrible painful reminder of what could have been?  M and I had a long discussion about that and he said it's about holding out hope and that people cope in their own way.  Apparently mine was to act like I wasn't pregnant until we got the all clear. 

Even though we pretty much did, I still have been dragging my feet.  So, off we went to Babies R Us.  That place is completely overwhelming and every fear I have ever had about being a mother completely sunk in yesterday.  It was bizzare.  I felt like M and I had a complete role reversal.  You know where the guy goes shopping with his insanely pregnant wife and she's cooing over swings and pack-n-plays and all color has drained from his face?  That was me.  I guess I just don't know where to start.

I did decide that I want to paint her room a pale pink (I was all for gender neutral in case we have another baby at some point, but who cares?  We can always re-paint) and I love this wall art http://www.amazon.com/RoomMates-RMK1439SLM-Scroll-Stick-MegaPack/dp/B003NGTNFG/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1329145623&sr=8-1.  When we went to Babies R Us, it turns out they have the whole line of bedding, lamps, etc in the same pattern.  I think the owls are just adorable.  So that was exciting :)

We found furniture we love and are very lucky that my parents have agreed to spring for the crib.  Now it's just on to more fun stuff- registering, shower ideas for my sister, getting her room ready, starting our baby care & childbirth classes, naming her :) (I hope that she will eventually be EBH, but I'm not sure M is on board yet...)

I have my 6 month (holy cow!) check up this afternoon and am hoping that my doctor was able to let the perinatologist weigh in on the scans as well. 

A big thank you for all the love, support and prayers.  We are so blessed to have great news to share and are hoping that after our next scan we will truly be given the "all clear".  We know that there are no guarantees in life and I promise that I am going to try and start enjoying this pregnancy thing once and for all.. after all, we'll be meeting our little girl in less than 15 weeks! :)